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Personal Growth and Development – Day 45 of 100

For those who asked me about my progress with my personal growth and development goals over the past week, thank you.  I’ve been so focused on my goal of $45,000 in the past 15 days, I’ve forgotten about writing.

The net… I’m short.  I’m short by $32,400.

When I write this, I must admit it sucks my energy when I don’t hit my goal.  It’s almost embarrassed that I didn’t hit it.  This morning getting out of bed, I dragged a little.

But as my coach Tim Wood has always told me, “In loosing, don’t loose the lesson.”

Here is my take a ways from this personal growth and development exercise:

-       Inherently, I doubt myself.  I doubt myself much more than I thought I did.  I’m working on tracking my mindset much more closely, so those feelings do not impact my future performance.  The funny thing about this is people this I’m SO CONFIDENT – and yes, I am confident, but that doesn’t mean I don’t doubt myself.  Does this ever happen to you?

-       I found myself constantly reasoning with myself why this goal is not realistic.  Can you relate?

-       I found myself thinking about what I am going to post on this blog if I don’t make the goal (Am I addicted to looking good or what?!!!!!)  Thoughts?

-       I found that without a consequence at the end, I’m not as intense about hitting the goal as I should be.  In the past, I would put a huge consequence (like paying a friend $5,000 if I didn’t hit my goal), but I’m looking for a quantum leap that doesn’t come from working harder.  I’ve got to test different programs here.

-       Putting a big goal is making me think WAY OUTSIDE the box… which is every exciting to me.  Just last Friday, I was in a coaching class saying to myself, “How can I take one idea from here and make $20,000 in the next five days?”

-       I’m not operating the way I have in the past when I have a big goal… I’m trusting, I’m believing, as opposed to stressing out.  This feels right.

-       I find myself not wanting to “waste” a day by not making it the best day ever.  This REALLY excites me!

I don’t consider not hitting my goal a failure.  Not even a little bit!  It’s all learning!  Of the $12,600 I made, half of the money came from ideas that came from thinking “outside the box!”  I’ll take that!  Also, I birthed ideas during the past 15 days that could impact thousands of thousands of lives.  I know if I add that much value in the marketplace, I will be compensated for that value.

That being said… I’m playing the game again!  This time, I’m going to lower the bar a little- $30,000 in by July 1st!  YES!  (So you know, part of me wants to hid and not publicly announce my next goal… but that would be “playing too small!”  Can you relate to this?)

I cannot tell you the value and energy I get by posting my feeling in a public place (this blog.)  It’s so empowering to be honest with the world and simply be the person I am… and nobody else.   I don’t believe that I ever mislead others in the past, but the value of being open to the world is SO EMPOWERING.

I encourage anyone who wants to say something to the world… express it here!  Express your personal growth, your personal development.

Any feedback for me after reading this?

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